8.30.2002 :::
 
been at school... no time to do anything, much less update my blog. everythings been kind of emotional the past few days. Thursday, Kelly, Jessica, Jacob and I were having a discussion w/ our yearbook teacher, Elizabeth, about Donelia.. it wasn't an emotional discussion, just a kind of... remembering the past discussion, and then we all had the same class next period, and Kelly was getting upset about it, the first time she had actually let go of everything since Donelia died.. that caused a chain reaction, Kelly, me, then Erica... Travis let us go to the bathroom, then Kelly, the sectenary (sp) got all in our face for "skipping class" and said that we shouldn't be worrying, blah blah blah.. the thing that made me mad was that they wouldn't even have a memorial service for her... because of the way she died.. but when Kristy died, she was breaking the law before she died, and they had this huge memorial for her... no offense to kristy's memory or anything.. then we were tlaking to Travis about it, so Travis talked to Cindy (principal...stoopidhead) and so she had a... what.... 15 to 30 second memorial for donelia... "You know, labor weekend is coming up, i'm sure you all are excited, and looking forward to the long weekend. Labor weekend is when you visit with your family, and friends. I'm sure some of you will be missing *really fast* Donelia, and be confused. I want you to know that we care about you, that we're always here for you. If you need to talk to anyone, we're here for you." then anothe teacher, matt, said more about the subject of killing yourself... blah blah blah... they acted like we were idiots.. i was like thisclose to like, getting up and yelling at cindy about everything, but since i was in a group of NEW students, and a lot of freshmen (she pulled us out of class according to which floor we were on), i decided aganist it. The way they held this.. "memorial" really pissed a lot of kids off... Susan or Suzanne... whtever her name is, was like, "Let's have a moment of silence for Donelia... hold hands now. *1 minute later* Well, we have to move on with life." its ilke... they went about it in the wrong way... *STUPID CLOWNS*

another subject. football team lost last night. 13 to 23. i think. cheerleading was alright... a few mistakes, but we're a "new team", so that's expected.
im tired. as fuck.
and mad.
and weirded out.
and annoyed.
and happy.
confused basically.

::: posted by ... Have I told you that I love you? at 8/30/2002 10:03:00 PM